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Kari. 25. Married. I'm a stay at home wife, who needs to find a job. I have 2 dogs 1 cat and 0 kids. I shop too often, and watch too much TV. I love music but don't get to listen to it too often. I support my Troops whole heartedly and believe there is nothing wrong with Same Sex Marriage. I hate Feet, Mushrooms, Beer, and Seafood. I love Cupcakes, Giraffes, Watermelon and Crowns. |
and I’m so lonely. :/ It’s honestly not really bothering me that I’ll be alone on Valentine’s Day. I thought it might, and who know how I’ll feel tomorrow, but right now, I don’t really care. It’s just another day this year.
Valentine’s is a Hallmark Holiday, I’ve never denied that. That doesn’t mean I want to boycott it. I never ask Zane for a big production. I’ve been trying to remember the past 7 Valentine’s Days we’ve had as a married couple. He was in Iraq for two, one of them he had Jury Duty, and that’s all I remember. I’m sure I could figure it out if I really wanted to. Oh, last year, I remember. We didn’t do anything, I made heart shaped Grilled Cheese with tomato soup for dinner. Anyway, what I’m trying to say is, I don’t care about dinner reservations at a fancy restaurant, dozens of red roses, or teddy bears. I don’t need to get all dress up and go out on the town. But just like all the other holidays, I’d like it to be acknowledged by him. I’m like a card and some chocolate. I’ve told him on multiple occasions he doesn’t need to go out and scour the shelves to find the exact right card, I’d be more happy with a sticky note that says “I Love You” which he’s done before. he sent me a pink sticky note from Iraq and that’s all it said, with a little “xoxo - Zane” at the bottom. It’s framed.
That’s all I want. Just an acknowledgement.
I really miss him. It’s awkward here without him.
