Drink The Poison Lightly

I hate waiting. Absolutely LOATH waiting for someone. I know I could eliminate a majority of the waiting I do, simply by getting my owl license so I don’t have to wait for rides, but… we’re not talking about that right now. 

Kids were suppose to be here at 8:30 am. The Mom texted me in the am and said their dad was bringing them at 9:30. It’s now 10:30 and I haven’t heard from either of them… blah, I hate it.

I agreed to babysit today while Sabrina moved. I love those kids so I figured I’d do it, just to get to see them. We all know I go bowling Friday nights, I don’t get home until about 2:30 am, then obviously don’t get to sleep until after 3. She needed me at 8:30 this morning. So I had my alarm set for 7:30, but didn’t actually get up until about 8. She didn’t show up until almost 9:30. Figures.

The other day when she first asked me, I told her I could only have them until 5ish. I texted her at about 5:30 and told her it wasn’t a big deal, I could keep them for a while longer if she needed me. She texted me at 7:30 and said she’d be here in a half hour. She didn’t show up until 9:30… 

12 hours of kids, on no sleep. It wasn’t very fun. I enjoyed the kids, but I was just so frustrated the whole time that I didn’t enjoy the time with them… :/ She did pay me, which I wasn’t expecting. That was nice. 

Whew… I am exhausted.

I met a little boy at the birthday party last night. He was so adorable. His name is Benny. He told me on quite a few different occasion “Hi. I’m Benny. I have 5 letters, B-E-N-N-Y.” The first time he told me, I said “Wow, I only have 4 letters.” To which he replied “When I was 4, I turned 5 on my birthday!” He was a funny kid. :]

…but my life is boring, and I have nothing to write about…

I’m not babysitting anymore. I don’t think I’ve written about that yet. The mom, Sabrina, got a job [she was in school when I was babysitting] but her hours don’t work for me since she wouldn’t be picking the kids up until midnight, and I just can’t do that. :/ I’m sad. I miss them. She said she is still looking for another job, or better hours at the one she’s at, then I can babysit again. Lydia’s birthday is the 23rd, but I’ve heard that the party may be canceled. :/ Either way I’ll see them soon because I bought her presents and I really want to give them to her. :]

My High School BFF, Kim, is back in town. She lives in Florida with her hubby and baby now. I miss her. It was nice hanging out with her today, but she’s changed so much, it makes me sad. We still get along and she’ll still be my friend forever… it’s just weird how much we’ve grown apart. I also have a uncontrollable jealousy issue when it comes to anyone else having kids, since I can’t have any. :/ So as happy as I am to get to see here again after 2 years, I’m pretty sad at the same time..

Today was suppose to be a “date day” for Zane and I. I interrupted that to go see Kim, and I guess that just killed the whole day. :/ We’ve done nothing, and he doesn’t want to do anything… Apparently there are zero movies he’ll even tolerate seeing, and he HATES going out to eat, and there’s not much else left… blah. Guess I’ll just spend the rest of the evening whining to myself, and go to be early. Hooray for husband/wife time.

On the bright side.. I won the high score competition at Bowling again last night. Hooray. It was only a 149, but I’m proud of myself.

I got nothing else to say… blah…

It’s no big deal really. The kids will sleep most of the day. I am just not looking forward to getting up at 6, since it’s 11 and I’m not the least bit tired.

They are getting picked up at 2, and Zane and I are leaving sometime after that. I am so excited.

I am actually kind of excited to see them again. Today it seemed like Viviann was a year older than last week when I saw her. She’s standing freely all the time. I haven’t seen her walk yet, but Aireal says she’s been talking steps at home. 

Aww. Little lady is growing up. 

Also, I don’t know why I am not tired. Last night I got about 4 hours of sleep, and took less than an hour nap today. Why am I not tired? I am the girl who gets like 12 hours a night. Weird.

With the kids. On the couch, since Zane’s in the bedroom. Let’s hope I can sleep for a little bit.

Thinking about setting up my Christmas Tree when we wake up. :]

UPDATE:
I did get some sleep, thankfully. And we did set up the tree. 

The kids got here at 6:30 AM yesterday and were here until 5:30 PM… I got a tiny nap while both the kids were sleeping, but it only lasted through one episode of Spongebob. So it wasn’t very long. After they left I was up until about 7, when I fell asleep while on Tumblr. I slept until about 9, tried to go back to sleep, but couldn’t. So I was up until almost midnight. :/

Now it’s 6:10 AM and I’ve been up for a little less than a half hour, ready to do it all again… It’s so much harder to get up in the mornings when Zane doesn’t have to work, and he’s been off thursday and today… 

I started babysitting again this week. After a month of not having them, they’re back. At first I really didn’t want to, but once they got here I was loving it again. I love kids, and I don’t really do anything anyway, so the very little pay is enough I guess.

I just completely forgot how busy I am when I’m babysitting. The kids are here from 6:30 - 4, if their mom is on time picking them up. So then I have a couple hours, which I usually use for Tumblr, until Zane gets home. This week he’s been working late, so I have a little more time. Once he gets home, we spend a little time together. Have dinner. Pretty much have about 2 hours, then it’s bedtime. 

I don’t mind I guess, since without them here I just spend all day on the computer. :/ I like having stuff to do, but with Viviann being so small, I can’t do much with Lydia, because Viv takes all the attention. So not only can I not do much with Lydia, I can’t really do anything at all. 

I don’t really know what the point of this post is. The kids aren’t here today so I’m catching up on things I couldn’t do the last couple days. Tumblr, TV, Laundry, etc.

itscrystalyall:

i seriously hate drunks.

and im going to seriously distance myself from aarons mom/stepdad, if she wont leave him or if he doesnt get help asap.

my parents were drunks and i will not have my child around drunks. 

not going to happen.

plain and simple.

its not so much his mom, she doesnt have a problem, its his stepdad, but she wont leave him even though he’s slowly getting worse and his behavior when he’s drunk is out of control. but if shes going to stay with him then she’s going to have to deal with not seeing her granddaughter very often.

I have the same issue. Well, I don’t have kids yet, but if I do have them, I’ll be in the same boat. :/ I don’t know if you know Zane and Thomas’s dad very well, but he’s an alcoholic, and when he’s drunk and even the littlest thing makes him mad, he flips out. He breaks stuff and throws stuff and hits people and is an all around horrible person. I’m sad that if I do have kids I’m going to have to keep them away from their Grampa, but seriously, I will not let him be around them like that. I don’t even want to be around him 90% of the time because he’s a drunk asshole. When he’s sober he’s completely awesome [most of the time] but when he’s drunk I cannot stand him.

I started this post with a lot on my mind. I wanted to write about what’s been going on, but there’s not really much going on.

• Zane is home and I love it, but it’s summer time and who knows, he could be headed out again tomorrow. :/ He’s making good money, and it’s helping out a lot right now, but I’m not sure it’s worth being alone so much. 
• My roommates are still assfaces, and I still want to stab them with rusty, diseased pieces of metal. They’ve been gone a lot lately, which is good, but when they’re home, they’re just as despicable as ever. 
• I haven’t been babysitting much lately, and I’m thinking about getting a seasonal job instead. Toys R Us emailed the other day reminding me to apply [they do that for anyone who’s ever been a seasonal employee]. I liked working there, and I was thinking about taking a night crew job, stocking shelves and cleaning up after the store closes. Who knows… maybe I’ll try for a completely different store. I hated Toys R Us’ uniforms.
• I still don’t have a license. I still want one, but I’m still deathly terrified of driving. I have been reading the manual, though that isn’t going to help me get over my fear.

Lydia was helping me make eggs for lunch. She is really good at cracking them and not getting any shell in the pan. I couldn’t do that until I took a cooking class at school. She’s only 2.

Right after this picture, she cracked the 3rd egg and broke the yoke. She looked at me with a very disgusted look [if you know her, you know the look I’m talking about] and said “Gross! That ones DEAD!”

These are my cousins Dane and Dymond. :]

Dymond was yelling at the dogs and her aunt told her to stop, when Dane says “She likes yelling Auntie, she’s a woman!”

Kids these days.. haha. Cracked me up!

WAY before I even needed to be up. So now I’m going to be extra tired all day.. Well, that is if I’m babysitting and have to be up all day. Still haven’t heard from the mom.. Blah. I’m not in the mood for kids today. Which means I’m almost 100% positive that they will be here. It always works that way. When I don’t want to babysit they come, when I want them, they don’t.. 

I guess I’ll go get dressed and clean up my roommates mess in the the living room, just in case the kids are coming.

Got up to babysit, but they’re not coming today. I don’t know if I should try to stay awake for my schedules sake, or go back to sleep for my sleepiness sake. I’ll probably go back to sleep. :)

EDIT: I did go back to sleep. And I slept for a long time… Hopefully I can sleep tonight so I can get up tomorrow when the kids get here.